Category Archives: Brokenness

Are You Among the Walking Wounded?

We have all experienced rejection in our lives. Rejection hurts, especially when it is emotional rejection. Rejection attacks our self-esteem, it chips away at our confidence, it breaks our heart. When we are mistreated an inner anger can express itself in rebellion, bitterness, hopelessness and other painful emotions.

We make promises to ourselves in order to protect our heart. Do either of these sound familiar? Nobody will ever tell me what to do again! I’ll never let anyone get close enough to hurt me again! The vows we make create blockages to inner healing.

Self-made walls become a defense system against anyone who may be able to hurt us. But God did not create us to be rejected. We are created to be accepted, loved and treasured. We are not defined by our past failures, disappointments or the rejection of others. One person’s rejection does not mean we are unlovable or that we are alone. Jesus experienced rejection. His love is unconditional and His acceptance is eternal. He has equipped us to forgive others and ourselves.

Isaiah 53:3 (NKJV)

He is despised and rejected by men, A Man of sorrows and acquainted with grief.
And we hid, as it were, our faces from Him; He was despised, and we did not esteem Him.

We have a choice to make. What we do with the hurt and disappointments that we will encounter will either make us stronger in the Lord or we will become walking wounded. Every child of God has access to His grace, love, and comfort. How will you respond? The defining factor in victorious living is knowing God’s everlasting love for you.

 Romans 8:31 (NKJV)

What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?

 

Thank you, Lord, for your healing touch in our lives.

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Cleanse Me Lord That My Broken Bones Will Rejoice

Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean; Wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.  Make me hear joy and gladness, That the bones You have broken may rejoice. Psalm 51:7-8 

King David felt the weight of his own sin and understood the path of repentance would open the door for God’s forgiveness.

Bones are the strength and framework of the body. At times God must figuratively or literally crush our bones in order to lead us from the path of sin.

This is my testimony – following a misguided search for love and acceptance, I found myself immersed in a biker gang. I was miserable and wanted to escape, but I was trapped. God in His mercy allowed me to become a victim in a biker gang war and made a way of escape for me.

The bullets from M16 rifles inflicted much pain and suffering. The bones in my arm and leg were crushed.  At first, I thought God was punishing me. In the long months in the hospital, my heart began to soften.

Like King David, I cried out to the Lord,  Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me. Psalm 51:10

Receiving the inward assurance of God’s forgiveness caused my bones to rejoice. I now dance with joy and gladness on weakened legs because my salvation has been restored.

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, A broken and a contrite heart— These, O God, You will not despise. Psalm 51:17

Thank you, Lord, for your forgiveness of sin and your restoration out of brokenness.

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Living a Restored Life in God’s Transforming Love

Among my mother’s keepsakes, I came upon a yellowed and torn article that blessed me abundantly. (author unknown)

broken vessels My daughter’s life reminds me of a beautiful vase that has been dropped and broken. When a broken vase is put back together properly, the cracks still show – like the scars in her life.

 At first, a fractured vase must be handled carefully until it has mended properly. After it has mended, the cracks of the fracture become less and less visible.  With the aging of the vase, new lines appear, and the fracture lines blend with the new lines – enhancing its beauty.

 To new people our daughter meets, the fractures in her life are not seen. They can’t believe they were ever there. To the prayer partners, the lines of God’s grace and love in her life have created new lines that have built faith and hope in their lives.

Do you fear you will never be able to let go of the brokenness in your life? Do you carry the burdens of hopelessness, pain, and sorrow?  Does shame and condemnation from your past hold you captive? You are not alone – God will meet you in your broken places.

The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and He saves those who have a contrite spirit. (Psalm 34:18)

The best way to heal a broken heart is to give God all the pieces. A contrite heart is one that is not led by self-will, but one that is obedient to the conviction of God’s word and is led by the Spirit of God. The Lord wants you to trust Him and develop a dependent spirit on Him. You will find rest and freedom in yielding a broken, contrite heart to be molded by the hand of God.

I was once devasted by the physical, mental and spiritual trauma in my life. Gently, the Lord opened my heart to the truth of His love, compassion, and grace. His transforming love overwhelmed my brokenness. Friend, you are not too broken, your past does not define you and you can be whole again.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9

 

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Thank You, Lord, for your transforming love that heals my brokenness and restores my life with love, hope, and joy in your salvation.

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Does Time Heal All Wounds?

time-heals-all-wounds-1087107_640Time is a great healer…so we are told. If we experience a broken heart, let more time pass by and the pain will begin to subside…so we are told. Passing time can bury our hurt, our emotional pain can soften and the effects of physical pain can begin to dissipate over time. It is what we do during the timeframe that affects the quality of our lives.

Time alone can not simply heal anything. The following quote by Rose Fitzgerald Kennedy makes a lot of sense to me:

“It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds.’ I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.”

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If all we needed is more time to be healed, we probably would suffer from hope deferred and a heart that becomes sick. (Proverbs 13:12)

But there is hope because Jesus is the great healer. He may ask you to participate in your healing. Do you need to forgive someone? He may require further understanding of a situation where your heart was wounded. Whatever He is calling you to do, spend prayerful time in His healing presence. I’ve discovered the best way to heal a broken heart is to give God all the pieces.

Stand on these healing promises from the Lord:

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He heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds. Ps 147:3

 

 

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“And now, Lord, what do I wait for? My hope is in You. Ps 39:7

 

Pray-ButtonThank you, Lord, for being such a complete healer. If we suffer from physical infirmities, you will give sufficient grace to the weak.

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The Keys to Forgiving Yourself

Are you still carrying the burden of shame, guilt, and condemnation from your past? In your mind are you replaying the foolishness of your prior decisions?       If this is you, then it is afd3e179afa73a6b279129f4fe046f4ftime to surrender and move towards forgiveness.

If you don’t learn how to forget former sins, you will always live in the past. Bitterness and guilt will continue to grow within you.

When you look in the mirror, do you love and accept the person that Christ made you to be, or do you see a broken person in need of forgiveness?

But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin. 1 John 1:7

If you have repented of your sins, then you are forgiven. Take a minute and let that sink in. Realize the power of the work of the cross and the shed blood of Jesus. Your debt has been paid. God is able to forgive you, even when you can’t forgive yourself.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.                         2 Corinthians 5:17

Don’t associate your failures with the new creation you have become. Your past does not define you, but it contributes to who you are today. Forgiveness is giving up the hope that the past could have been any different. Realize you did the best you could at the time considering the circumstances.

God knows your name, and He calls you His own. Here are just a few of the names He has given you:

  • Chosen (Colossians 3:12) cdf08e10c8ec744a88a0eb9d508d5436
  • Child (1 John 3:1)
  • Beloved (Deuteronomy 33:12)
  • Holy & Blameless          (Ephesians 1:4)
  • Friend ( John 15:15)
  • Daughter (2 Corinthians 6:18)
  • Heir (Romans 8:17)
  • Blessed (Psalm 65:4)
  • Redeemed (Ephesians 1:7)
  • Treasured Possession   (Deuteronomy 7:6)

Give yourself grace and move towards loving yourself. Begin to see how your Lord and Savior sees you!
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Thank you, Lord, for your precious shed blood that has paid for my sins. I am so grateful for your forgiveness and love towards me.

 

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Sharing the Truth of God’s Love Overwhelmed My Brokenness

I have one of those testimonies – you know the ones where people gasp as you are sharinbroken patchg it. For many years, I lived with the shame and condemnation of my past. I had to defend myself from the fiery darts thrown by many Christians.

A misguided search for love and acceptance led me into a world of drugs and life in a motorcycle gang. Caught up in a violent gang war, I became a victim of two gunshot wounds when a rival gang opened fire with M16 rifles. Within those few seconds, the crippling bullets forever changed my life.

In my determination to start a new life, I encountered the hope and healing of God’s transforming love. Often people would tell me, “You ought to write a book”. I always balked at the idea, after all; I’m not a writer. I wouldn’t know where to begin and the thought of it was overwhelming.

Eventually, I listened to the Lord’s conviction that it was His purpose for me to write the book. My testimony could help others discover the truth of God’s love. The Lord will restore what is broken and make a heart whole again.

My introduction to becoming a writer was literally a cry-out to the Lord, “Help me!” Although, it may not sound spiritual, this has been my heart’s cry with each new chapter. I reminded myself that the Lord would not call me without equipping me.

I searched the internet for writing resources and found helpful blogs and advice. I registered for my first Christian conference. To my delight I found a group of kindred hearts longing to be used by God through their writing and speaking. What a relief for this newbie writer to know much-needed help would be available along the way.

This was a lesson that Moses struggled with. Moses knew the Lord would use him to deliver the Israelites from the Egyptians, but he wanted to do it in his own way. Moses felt inadequate to deliver God’s people. He had tried once and failed. So God reassured him that He would give him the words to say.  (Exodus 4:10-12)

Moses now must see his mission from God’s perspective. He knows he is inadequate in his own strength. He knows that he alone cannot carry out God’s purpose. That is exactly where God wanted him, dependent on Him alone. He needed to trust the Lord to equip him.

Be attentive to God’s calling and leading in your life. You are never too young or too old to serve Him.

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Thank you Lord – It is an honor to trust you with your purpose for my life.

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Are You Willing to Give the Lord the Key to Your Heart?

key to my heartHave you spent too much time in the valleys of life? Wouldn’t you like to walk in the freedom of Christ? Jesus’ shed blood on the cross paid the price to set us free.

Scripture tells us in Psalm 44:21b, For He knows the secrets of the heart.” God wants you to surrender control of your heart. I know this to be true because Jesus waited patiently for me, drawing me close to Him, at times lovingly chastising me along the path to discovering true freedom.

There was a time my heart had become hardened from pain and brokenness. My heart was locked inside walls of sorrow. I kept it protected from future pain, and I vowed never to let anyone or anything hurt me again. But, the Lord required me to hand over the key to my heart. He wanted access to all the locked doors.

Healing is a process. At times, I felt shackled to the weight of my sin. Guilt, shame and condemnation separated me from God’s healing. A hardened heart cannot yield to God’s plan of redemption. Jeremiah 29:11 states, For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.” Your hope is secure in the Lord’s hands.

God knows the secrets of the heart Slowly, God’s light came into the wounded places bringing with it hope and healing. At times the healing was painful, but I was never alone. Jesus was with me and bringing me out of captivity one step at a time.

Firsthand, I experienced the Lord’s steadfast love and His compassionate heart. He healed my broken heart, one shattered piece at a time. All that was required of me was to trust Him with the key to my heart.

Pray-ButtonThank you Lord for your compassionate heart to bring healing and freedom into my life.

Has your heart become hardened as a result of life’s trials? What areas do you need to surrender to the Lord?

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Is Your Brokenness Showing?

broken heartHer beautiful smile and warm countenance caused me to stop and offer a holiday blessing. She struggled to maneuver the motorized shopping cart through the aisles of the store. Her brokenness was showing, but her spirit was joyfully whole. In the eyes of God, she accepted her weakness and allowed His strength to manifest in her life.

We live with brokenness and blessings, challenges and victories, sorrow and joy. They are intertwined together. Allow the Lord to remove the strands of brokenness and sorrow from your life and the blessings and joy will remain. The challenge is to give God all your broken pieces to receive the victory. “For the battle is the Lord’s…” 1 Samuel 17:47

Some of us lock our broken heart inside walls of sorrow. We vow we won’t let anyone or anything hurt us again. We develop a hard heart. Our brokenness is hidden. Scripture compares a hardened heart to a rebellious heart. “Today, if you will hear His voice, Do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion.” Hebrews 3:15

Some of us (like myself) show our brokenness to the world. I walk with a limp; I can’t hide it. My cane provides extra stability and I am grateful for the security it brings. “The Lord is my strength and my shield; My heart trusted in Him, and I am helped; Therefore my heart greatly rejoices, And with my song I will praise Him.” Psalm 28:7

Some of us look broken from the weariness of fighting life’s battles. We hang our head in hopelessness. We question the Lord’s love and faithfulness to deliver us from our circumstances. “Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart, All you who hope in the Lord.” Psalm 31:24

Healing is possible. There is rest and freedom in yielding a broken, contrite heart to broken heart - Ps 34-18be molded by the hand of God. The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, And saves such as have a contrite spirit.” Psalm 34:18

Pray-ButtonThank you Lord that we can trust you with our broken places. You fill our wounded hearts with peace and hope.

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Out of Brokenness and Into Wholeness

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Brokenness is a reality for all of us. It is natural for us to resist the heartbreak of grief, disappointment, and pain. Even so…the truth of the Gospel of Jesus Christ remains – there is hope and healing in yielding a broken, contrite heart to be molded by the hand of God. Your part is to give God all the pieces and to trust Him with His plan and purpose for your life. God’s part is to bring restoration. (Jeremiah 29:11-14)

I was a young teenager when my parents divorced. My mother left us in search of a better life. Consequently, my father had the task of caring for three children. Physically he was there, but he was absent in heart. Being the oldest child, a lot of household responsibilities were forced upon me.

I carried an overwhelming loneliness and emptiness in my heart. I sought escape from the pain and rejection by numbing myself with drugs.

In my quest to seek and find love and acceptance, I met Viggo, a member of an outlaw motorcycle club. The gang offered me a promise of excitement, drugs and a sense of belonging. I embraced the camaraderie of many new brothers and sisters, and I became Viggo’s property.

I carried an illusion of freedom within this new family. It wasn’t until I witnessed many injustices against others, that I realized I was slipping into a dark world without hope. I had no idea how I would escape the control the gang imposed on my life.

One evening, we quickly and discreetly fled from NYC authorities. With each passing mile, we were closer to entering a volatile gang war in Texas. Six nights later I would become a victim in their war.

In the early morning hours, several members of a rival gang stood outside the house where we were staying and opened fire. I was standing in the doorway facing the front windows when the shooting started.

Silhouetted by the light, they took aim at me and when the first shots rang out, I was hit immediately in my left arm. Fortunately, while I reached for the light switch, my arm crossed over my heart and became a protective shield. The bullet’s impact had thrown me, and before I hit the floor, another bullet lodged in my right thigh.

Hours later, I awoke in the intensive care unit of a nearby hospital. My right leg hung elevated in traction; my left arm was covered in a plaster cast. I was sure God was punishing me. As I lay motionless and silent, it occurred to me that all my searching for love and acceptance had brought me to this place. There was no escape from the pain and suffering or the uncertainty of the future.

For the next six months, I was completely bedridden. In another attempt to fuse my shattered bones, my doctor wrapped me in a body cast of plaster from my chest down to my ankle. It proved to be a futile attempt. Eventually, a surgeon fused the bones in my leg together using a bone fragment from my hip. As a result, my leg is permanently two inches shorter.

Determined to start a new life, I severed all ties with the gang. I was transported back to NJ and started a year of intensive rehabilitation therapy. Today, I have a limited range of motion in my arm and leg. Gradually, I learned to live with my disabilities. In fact, my doctors declared me a miracle!

When a friend invited me to attend a baptismal service at her church, I agreed to go because of the transformation I saw in her. Listening to the testimonies of others, the good news of the gospel filled my heart with hope. That night I asked Jesus to be my Lord and Savior.

In time, the Lord healed the bitterness and anger I held in my heart. Sin had its consequences, but His love has transformed my life. The Lord blessed me with a Godly husband and two precious daughters. I am rejoicing in His provision as He prepares the path before me.

*This post was first published as a guest post on Aug 11, 2015                Testimony Tuesday – hollybarrett.org

Pray-ButtonThank you Lord for the salvation you have provided for us. Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away, all things have become new. (2 Corinthians 5:17)

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A Fractured Life Can Be Beautiful Again

broken things2Among my mother’s keepsakes, I found a yellowed and torn article that blessed me abundantly. Unfortunately, although the author is unknown, the message is still powerful.

     My daughter’s life reminds me of a beautiful vase that has been dropped and broken. When a broken vase is put back together properly, the cracks still show – like the scars in her life.

     At first a fractured vase must be handled carefully until it has mended properly. After it has mended, the cracks of the fracture become less and less visible.  With the aging of the vase, new lines appear and the fracture lines blend with the new lines – enhancing its beauty.

     To new people our daughter meets, the fractures in her life are not seen. They can’t believe they were ever there. To the prayer partners the lines of God’s grace and love in her life have created new lines that have built faith and hope in their lives.

Kintsugi is the Japanese art of repairing broken pottery with lacquer dusted or mixed with powdered gold, silver, or platinum. As a philosophy, it treats  breakage and repair as part of the history of an object, rather than something to disguise.

Tea bowl fixed in the Kintsugi method

Tea bowl fixed in the Kintsugi method

I think the Japanese are onto something here! My broken cups and vases are quickly discarded; I see them as no longer perfect.

Do you find yourself striving for perfection? Are you ashamed  to let others see your scars? We all are broken by circumstances in our lives. The Lord knows this and His grace and His love has made a way for us to find perfection in Him.

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.”    (2 Corinthians 12:9a)

But whoever keeps His word, truly the love of God is perfected in him. By this we know that we are in Him. (1 John 2:5)

Pray-ButtonThank you Lord for bringing restoration to the broken places in my life. You will perfect all that concerns me as I place my trust in you.

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